You Never Know How Happy You Really Are Until You Lost It

If you watched the podcasts on YouTube, you always saw that there was someone who would be shown for questions that were given for the guest. This person, and yes, I am not lying to you, is a real life superheroine. It was like when her picture was posted on the podcast, the viewership went up but no one commented or even went to her to say “Hey! I saw you on the “Life with Joey Calvo” Podcast on YouTube and would like to get to know you.” This person was the #1 fan, she was the #1 supporter of this podcast and her name was American Fox.

I met American Fox on social media. If you can see with the picture of American Fox above of how truly beautiful she really is. As time rolled along, we really got to know each other and when I got an email from her every day, I smiled because I knew that my support was there. She would tell me about her patrols at night.

That’s right, she goes out and fights actual crime!!!! I told you that she is a real life superheroine!!!! She doesn’t have a secret identity. She is American Fox 24/7!!!!!!

I have to be honest with everyone, including the guests on the podcasts when American Fox had questions. I was at the point that I was asking questions to guests that were authors or musicians if they thought about doing a superheroine type novel or song.

I was actually getting a kick to it and I knew that it would put a smile to American Fox because no one would ever think about taking superheroines seriously, let alone talking about one who really exists.

I should know because American Fox used to let me know. Sometimes she would tell me that she reached out to the person themselves and had conversations. I was so happy about it

American Fox and I would talk about superheroines and ask me my opinion about it. I got to the point where I was placing American Fox above all others!!! Why?? Here is the actual answer to that!! SHE IS REAL FOLKS!!!!!!

American Fox is not a Wonder Woman cosplayer!!!!! I have had superheroine cosplayers on the podcast and American Fox sent them questions!!!!!!

American Fox is American Fox 24/7!!! No secret identity!!!

American Fox is an Amazon like Wonder Woman and may almost look like Wonder Woman but they are totally different. American Fox doesn’t have a lasso of truth but just as strong as Wonder Woman

One thing that pissed me off is no one wanted to question that. You view the video and see her and probably “serviced” yourself to her picture. Ok. I can see why

A real life superheroine with beautiful eyes, an awesome rack and very beautiful long hair. I could see why you would want to “relieve” yourself. I would admit to it too!!!

There is more to American Fox that you need to know!!!! If it was not for American Fox, this podcast would have been over with. She has a much better superpower than all the superheroines combined, a real friend and that is where everything went downhill on me!

Yes, you would ask me why? Here is the 4-1-1 and yes guys, you would agree on some of this!!!!!

I said that American Fox is real and yes I am saying that those that saw her picture on the podcast “relieved” themselves. Some used to reach out to American Fox to want to meet her and have their way with her. I was one of them

Something about me, I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression in 2009. I live alone in Philadelphia and don’t have much in reference to a relationship or friends or if I did, it’s a distance. I made a mistake in August 2008 that changed everything, but this is not really much about me in this.

American Fox did something that I don’t feel a lot of. When we would “chat”, she had me feeling “protected” and “loved”.

American Fox is the one who really kept me on my feet with her wisdom, her kindness and her generosity and like an asshole, I destroyed it

You look at the picture of American Fox and you wish that she was your girlfriend or significant other!!! I am admitting that I was feeling it!

When I was doing the GoFundMe campaign (see earlier posts), I wanted to really bring American Fox here (with another former guest) for a “Meet & Greet”. I actually still feel like it will happen.

I wanted to bring American Fox to Atlantic City, NJ to show you, the viewers that she is real and that she was a supporter of the podcast, but behind the scenes, I wanted to bring her to Atlantic City to spend time with a friend, even if it was for a little bit.

I recently did a podcast about friends and what my “criteria” was. I also watched the movie “Friends with Benefits” with Justin Timberlake and Mila Kunis (I would suggest it if you are a loser like me!!!)

I wanted to expand my “friendship” with American Fox to be more. I would never thought how much damage you can really do.

I tell you when you are diagnosed with anxiety and depression that a lot of mental issues happen. I have “mood swings” where I can be on cloud 9 for a little bit and then the next, I want to dig a hole for myself because of something.

No one deserves that in a friend but American Fox stood by through that. I told you that she is a real life superheroine and I am really not lying about it. She kept encouraging me to be positive and stay positive and when I attempted to, the mood swing would hit. I started to really feel that I am now American Fox’s new archenemy!!! I really feel it now

It was not Joey Calvo, the host of the “Life with Joey Calvo” Podcast that destroyed having the most amazing person in your life as a friend, it was Joey Calvo, the one with anxiety and depression, mental issues that he can’t fix (as much as American Fox wanted him to) and ideas that were not a “friend” level and there is probably much more that I don’t know as I am writing this (You could ask American Fox, but I doubt she would want to tell you)

American Fox just had her birthday recently and I did something, or I thought I did something special for American Fox. I did a podcast to celebrate her and letting you, the viewers know how much American Fox really did for this podcast. As of today (7/9/25), it has had 46 views (See when a picture of American Fox is used on the podcast, it gets a lot of views). I got the appreciation from American Fox for it

I do believe in God and I was watching Joel Osteen and Dr. Charles Stanley. I always feel like when I am in a “mood”, they have messages on it and I swear. Dr. Stanley passed years ago and yet God has him directing me to look at it!!!

Well through all of that, I kept wishing that American Fox came to see me in person so I can fulfill the “reality” American Fox could tell you different, but I doubt it). I also like Joyce Meyer and she was doing the service at Lakewood Church in Houston, TX (Joel Osteen’s church) and I thought that I was seeing “some light” in what I need to do. That’s when I destroyed the greatest thing I ever had in my life.

I lost the person that I really turned to on everything, including this podcast and the attempts to making this podcast better (from the encouragement American Fox had given me in the past) due to everything.

I know that I can say that one reason why I lost American Fox is because I am just going through my 93 year old mom. She had a couple of strokes. I thank God that she is still with us for now and is in a rehab facility getting better and I really needed a physical person to help me get through this. I did so much “pushing” with American Fox to see her that I said something (I don’t want to repeat it because it actually hurts!!) that ended everything.

This is the last time I promote American Fox on this podcast and newsletter.

You should follow American Fox on

X: @americanfox4

Instagram & Threads: @americanfox12018

If you do reach out to her, DO NOT ATTACK HER FOR WHAT I DID IN OUR BOND!!!! American Fox is a real life superheroine and if you do, I hope she kicks your ass like mine should be for destroying the best support I ever had in my life

I know that I may never get this back now. I should have been happy with what I had. Even the guest on the podcast yesterday (LIfe with Betsy Kudlinski, before I realized that I may have fucked that up too) said that even virtual is better than nothing at all

As of today, I have realized that I have nothing at all. When the “Meet & Greet” happens and I reach out to American Fox to come because she will always be the #1 fan, #1 supporter and my #1 real life superheroine, it will be for business and not personal.

Thank you American Fox for all the good times that we really had and I wish that I should have really showed you the true appreciation you were to me. I am sorry for everything that I did and I know that deep down, I will never forgive myself for losing a real friend in American Fox